Hello everyone!
Welcome to a new opus of "JJV Offs"!
" I love carnival, it’s a time of celebration and entertainment that thrills me."
Since my childhood, when I was part of the dancing group that I then trained from the age of 14, I loved dancing parades. Carnivals or village festivals, I loved contributing to a warm and colorful atmosphere. It was one of the rare moments where, for the sake of appearance, I could have a normal childhood with my friends from the club.
Even though I was closely monitored so as not to talk about what was happening at home, I could find moments when I was still allowed to behave like a normal child. Good times from this dancing group which allowed me to make friends and see that childhood is not just about being belittled, humiliated or beaten up.
I was lucky in my life to meet wonderful people who allowed me to understand at a young age that what was happening in the family was not normal and to get out of it to have respite and live normally. My best solution for leaving as soon as possible without risking passing was to keep quiet so as not to attract additional wrath and to leave as early as I could. From a very young age, I quickly understood that I didn't count and that I was clearly too much.
It took me a long time to start getting over it and being able to talk about it. But I am not the only one to have experienced such events. I was ashamed and felt worthless. But it is not our place to be ashamed of the wounds inflicted on us. That's why now I'm happy to share good times with you and good discussions in my everyday life.
Carnival or parties allow me, like games, to escape for a moment like they did when I was a child and teenager. The beauty of games is that they allow you to open up to others via a common base. This is what I humbly try to offer to little ones who sometimes experienced things similar to my childhood. I don't understand how you can harm an innocent being like a child, even your own child...
I'm happy to see them enjoy a moment where they forget what they've been through and find a smile again for a moment. When I was asked if I wanted to participate in these moments through games with them, I accepted without thinking and I have no regrets. For them I am “the fairy of smiles”, for me they are the “little elves of hope”.
I have hope for them that they too can build themselves despite their past and not become broken adults who no longer believe in anything. I love seeing them smile, hearing them laugh, seeing them play and simply enjoying life innocently as they deserve. So if I can continue to be a moment of respite, complicity and joy for them for a moment, I will continue to be so with pleasure and determination.
Good day and good game! ;)
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